as the fairylike daze after exams come to an end, it's back to the sun (though we had gloomy skies on tuesday) and the arrows.

did i mention that wretched bow? which is still conquering me?

somehow exams seemed to have ended looong ago, though it's barely a week. and i wondered where the time has flown to. but bleah, i'm done with being a student this sem, so it's now time to be a full-time archer again!

resolution n0.1 = to get back in shape.

yeah, i know i used to say "round is a shape", so technically i'm in shape. but it has recently come to my attention (from the sinful indulgence of snacks during exams) that round is a fairly uncomfortable shape. whatever the case, it's time to do something about it.

have been going to gym on monday and today with some running (not a lot, due to the additional toil and weight my feet has to suffer above it). 2, 4, 6 is officially archery days.

resolution no.2 = to be a good archer

this is tough.

so often than not, i struggle with the decision. or decisions. whether to continue shooting. from a simple joy, it has complicated itself with politics and national team and undesired competition. the company i enjoy, but beyond that, i have little to speak of my deteriorating shooting.

with nothing to my name, it seems hard to justify anything. it's not about being materialistic. it's not about the argument that "as long as we are enjoying it, it's ok right?". it's about achieving that self-satisfaction. but it has perhaps come to a point where i could no longer muster it. when it has brought more disappointment than joy, mayhaps it's time to reconsider. perhaps it's just that my desire for excellence is too strong, it has often (not this once) resulted in me fearing otherwise.

argh, whatever. an archer will continue to train.