Monday, May 30, 2005
painful constraint
nothing is more painful
than not being able to share with your closest confidante
the one thing that you can share with everyone else.
one's dream could be another's nightmare.
~~~~~
than not being able to share with your closest confidante
the one thing that you can share with everyone else.
one's dream could be another's nightmare.
~~~~~
for all the light and illumination it has given you
for being one of the single thing that brightens up your life
one day it could be a lamp post; strong and firm,
another day, a ceiling lamp hanging from the skies.
for all the light and illumination it has given you
the ceiling lamp couldn't
it couldn't
give you the support you need.
to hold on and not fall
you couldn't
depend on it.
Saturday, May 28, 2005
the gay week
somehow it felt good to be writing again. the lack of entries has not been due to lack of inspiration or happenings, but i'm sort of hanging on to it while waiting for photos to come in (from others' cameras). yeah, I've so gotten to posting entries with pictures, seems more interesting than plain words alone ain't it?
but before memories pass on and laziness set in, words will flow first before pictures. k? =)
~~~~~
archery chalet proved to be a manly event. Zhicong's gay night has turned itself into 2 gay nights, as Zhan Tau, Ben, Zhicong and myself welcomed the new entry of Alvin on the second night of the chalet. ZC's probably disappointed with the lack of girls haha. but who says guys can't have fun! unlocking Tekkan 4 and Dynasty Warriors characters on PS2, shooting each other down in Counter-Strike, and Liverpool VS AC Milan.
If 2 men can change the tides of time (think PS2 Dynasty Warrior), 4 makes a good number for bridge. *grin*
~~~~~
"You'll never walk alone."
and salute Liverpool I must. truly against all odds. but CC will say it's written in the stars; and maybe it was. It was Liverpool's night, you could almost sense it.
one of my module mates last sem mentioned that she is a Liverpool fan because she enjoys watching sweaty sexy men playing football. hmm, whatever. anyway, soccer is truly, the beautiful game. anything can happen. 球是圆的。
to all Liverpool fans, paint the town red! walk the streets in red jersey! because red is in fashion again.
~~~~~
and Happy Birthday Jeffrey! which reminds me i'm turing 23 proper soon. damn.
~~~~~
I find it awfully weird. but I somehow enjoy conducting archery courses. held one for 华中 friday morning, and yeah, i love to poke fun at "HCI" (Hwa Chung Institution), like gosh. "Institution"?!?!?!?
Ben woke up late, so i took over the conducting for the day. felt like a year 1 again, when i seem to be conducting course after course. saying "clear!" and "last arrow!" has so much ring in it, i almost missed saying it this year as a senior. but sad i was, as i glanced around the range, picking up the faces that have been so familiar since I was a year 1, my own batch. why has the new batch not taken on the same enthusiasm as we did? i hope i spoke too soon.
but it's the whole idea of coaching someone new that makes it so enjoyable, that every course is different in its essence. the people, the time, the instructors, the moments. sometimes the simple act of them bursting the balloons near the end of each session can already bring joy to me, weird as it sounds. never can i go for a course not remembering the one i conducted for PJC 1 year ago, probably the best i conducted. with the souvenirs and the effort put it, it's touching that my students then still kept in touch with me, through emails.
and ah ok! i found the picture of the souvenir made!
and needless to say, these boys from HCI remind me so much of what i was like in lower sec. =)
~~~~~
to some it may almost sound sad. every event seemed have happened with guys. but yet, to me, it seemed to have brought back a parallel with times long past. innocent 13-16.
if i may choose to relive any 4 years, those are the years i will choose. without a doubt.
but gay, i am not. =)
but before memories pass on and laziness set in, words will flow first before pictures. k? =)
~~~~~
archery chalet proved to be a manly event. Zhicong's gay night has turned itself into 2 gay nights, as Zhan Tau, Ben, Zhicong and myself welcomed the new entry of Alvin on the second night of the chalet. ZC's probably disappointed with the lack of girls haha. but who says guys can't have fun! unlocking Tekkan 4 and Dynasty Warriors characters on PS2, shooting each other down in Counter-Strike, and Liverpool VS AC Milan.
If 2 men can change the tides of time (think PS2 Dynasty Warrior), 4 makes a good number for bridge. *grin*
~~~~~
"You'll never walk alone."
and salute Liverpool I must. truly against all odds. but CC will say it's written in the stars; and maybe it was. It was Liverpool's night, you could almost sense it.
one of my module mates last sem mentioned that she is a Liverpool fan because she enjoys watching sweaty sexy men playing football. hmm, whatever. anyway, soccer is truly, the beautiful game. anything can happen. 球是圆的。
hmmm.. but球一向来都是圆的。
to all Liverpool fans, paint the town red! walk the streets in red jersey! because red is in fashion again.
~~~~~
and Happy Birthday Jeffrey! which reminds me i'm turing 23 proper soon. damn.
~~~~~
I find it awfully weird. but I somehow enjoy conducting archery courses. held one for 华中 friday morning, and yeah, i love to poke fun at "HCI" (Hwa Chung Institution), like gosh. "Institution"?!?!?!?
Ben woke up late, so i took over the conducting for the day. felt like a year 1 again, when i seem to be conducting course after course. saying "clear!" and "last arrow!" has so much ring in it, i almost missed saying it this year as a senior. but sad i was, as i glanced around the range, picking up the faces that have been so familiar since I was a year 1, my own batch. why has the new batch not taken on the same enthusiasm as we did? i hope i spoke too soon.
but it's the whole idea of coaching someone new that makes it so enjoyable, that every course is different in its essence. the people, the time, the instructors, the moments. sometimes the simple act of them bursting the balloons near the end of each session can already bring joy to me, weird as it sounds. never can i go for a course not remembering the one i conducted for PJC 1 year ago, probably the best i conducted. with the souvenirs and the effort put it, it's touching that my students then still kept in touch with me, through emails.
isn't it always so.
the feeling
when you touched another's life?
and ah ok! i found the picture of the souvenir made!
and needless to say, these boys from HCI remind me so much of what i was like in lower sec. =)
~~~~~
to some it may almost sound sad. every event seemed have happened with guys. but yet, to me, it seemed to have brought back a parallel with times long past. innocent 13-16.
if i may choose to relive any 4 years, those are the years i will choose. without a doubt.
but gay, i am not. =)
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
Happy 15th Month!
Monday, May 23, 2005
politicians and media
Yeah, I know this came an episode too late. It's just I saw this funny comic strip in this week's issue of The Economist but I couldn't find it anywhere online (and i have no scanner sadly), so got to make do with what I can find online!
Why this entry? There was an discussion in a history class one day when I had to comment on Japan's shrine visiting issue and how it will affect the Sino-Japanese relationship. And I commented that politicians are so childish sometimes, and somehow got remembered for that by the tutor. Hah. what a way to be remembered in class!
~~~~~
But I stick to my line of thoughts that actions of politicians can be so laughable at times. ok, not even looking at the thousands of Bush jokes. But yet, you have to wonder at the power and the consequences of their actions. and sometimes, so much is at stake that i shook my head wondering why on earth they make such decisions? Just look at this.
Japan's parliament just approved a law renaming a public holiday on April 29, in honour of its late emperor, Hirohito. I mean, this obviously glorifies Japan's military past! and even with the displeasure and the many anti-Japanese movements now, the parliament surely can make this decision later? or not at all?
I mean, in my opinion, this shrine issue can get so childish sometimes. like, the more China talks about it, the more Koizumi makes it puiblic on visiting the shrine. man. it's almost a childish struggle of power.
against all economic rationality of trade and what not. ah, Adam Smith has gotten it wrong.
~~~~~
Saw this article in The Economist as well. Go check out this game call Sudoku. Apparently it has fans addicted to it. I've tried one! took me bloody 20 minutes..
~~~~~
Anyway, who can forget the blunder by Newsweek in publishing that the soldier flushed a copy of the Koran down the toilet bowl.
so many died for nothing. at the power of the media.
suddenly, despite all criticisms, we may have to be thankful for our slightly more consverative newspapers. liberty just doesn't work all the time.
~~~~~
on the fun side of the media. J Lo for US President anyone?
Friday, May 20, 2005
20 05 2005
this is technically a very boring post, written to commerate 20 May 2005. or 20052005 if you like.
some dates fact:
this blog started on 050505
today is 20 05 2005
argh. you must think i'm getting all cranky. hah! I must be! it's less than 24 hours to the FA Cup Final!
some dates fact:
this blog started on 050505
today is 20 05 2005
argh. you must think i'm getting all cranky. hah! I must be! it's less than 24 hours to the FA Cup Final!
"There's only one United
There's only one United!"
There's only one United!"
~~~~~
Alright, before I stray off, lets get back to writing proper.
Alright, before I stray off, lets get back to writing proper.
time flying by is such an old expression that it can join the ranks of "在一个风和日丽的早上...”, but indeed it is true (please allow me to be cliche haha) since we're never going to see 20 05 2005 ever again.
moments. that passed.
stare at your digital watch. watch the seconds tick by. 11 pm 39 min 25 sec just passed me by. and the next second, and the next. they ain't coming back. and i wondered what I have done in the past second that was actually worth remembering.
hmm, probably nothing.
in fact, time is so precious, don't waste it by attending silly matric fair briefings. ARGH.
well, don't think too hard. this is but a devious ploy for me to show off my Manchester United clock hanging proudly in my room *laughs* (yeah, now you notice why "time" was even brought up haha)
My clock speaks. can you hear? it says "25 more hours to the FA Cup Final!!!!" Man Utd VS Arsenal. Yeah. The Showdown.
This match is damn important. cos it will determine my mood for sunday *grin* gosh, i'm so self-centered. haha. Man Utd will triumph! *brings out my match battle gear - Man Utd jersey and scarf*
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
Advice.Apparently.Nothing
After going down to Marian South Park for a recce (basically planning) today for my scouts' charity walkaton, i saw the below chinese looking cruise boat going down the Kallang river... and it reminded me of a story i read before.
两位衣衫褴楼的男子坐在码头边，看着豪华游艇从眼前航行而过。
“你知道吗？”其中一位说，“我之所以在这边而不是在那游艇上的原因是，我从不听任何人给我的任何忠告。”
“这倒是有趣，”另一位说，“我之所以在这边而不是在那游艇上的原因则是， 我总是听取每个人给我的所有忠告。”
A Story.. Click to enlarge
It's interesting how anything and almost everything in this world can be a double edged sword. too much of a good thing can end up being a bad thing (kids, don't eat too much vitamins, and don't study so hard that you neglect other aspects of life).
Even advice. the double edged sword. it almost ties in with trust. like, how much can you trust someone to listen fully to his advice? An archer (identity protected) once told me "I trust XXX, whatever he say or advice, I just follow and do. no questions".
i never forgot that line. it filled me with so much cynicism that i had to keep quiet, in fear that my tactlessness got the better of me.
to what degree of blindness will you follow advice? not knowing if it will lead you to the kingdom of heaven (apt since i watched it today as well haha), or the valleys of hell? hello! YOU have a brain, please process the advice first. why do you place so much faith in another human? who's imperfect, just like you. and me. and all of us.
but yet, never reject advice. it is so often said that the one who disliked being advised the most, often is the one who needs it the most. don't be stubborn and be all high and mighty. don't let your ego take charge of you. sometimes we just need another thinking head, even if it's from someone you deem lesser than you.
Take home lesson:
永远记取忠告，但未必需要时时奉行。
~~~~~
Everything seems so elusive, you start to wonder what's real and what's not. what's good and what's bad.
i took the below photo at Marina South Park too. go figure. which half of the photo is the real scenery and which is the reflection. rotate it if you must! it could be easy, perhaps, but yet it underlies how easily our eyes can trick us. AND despite my love for photoshop, there is nothing edited here, save for the words.
Apparently Nothing.. Click to enlarge
which brings me to the word "apparent". yes, i've been thinking hard. haha (yeah, so typical). that word. what does it actually mean?
on one hand, it means "obvious" and yet, on the other, it could as easily mean "as opposed to real". one word, with almost two distinct different meanings. english has gone mad!
and life. presented with so many options, choices, advices and images. which is real? which is good? nothing seems apparent. or should i say, everything seems apparent.
i'm not really sure how to carry on from here, my head flooded with so many many threads of thoughts, so numerous that i'm unable to pen them down. there's just so many things to discuss of reflections. its blurness, its lacking of the definite solid shape that its original image possess, its mystical properties. how it can show you who you are, and yet how it can distort reality. how you can waste your life away fishing for that moon in the lake. how it could relate to life.
P.S. well, for the curious, the answer is.. the half with "apparently nothing" is the reflection on the lake, while the half with "apparent" is the actual objects. yeah, i'm sure you got that anyway.
两位衣衫褴楼的男子坐在码头边，看着豪华游艇从眼前航行而过。
“你知道吗？”其中一位说，“我之所以在这边而不是在那游艇上的原因是，我从不听任何人给我的任何忠告。”
“这倒是有趣，”另一位说，“我之所以在这边而不是在那游艇上的原因则是， 我总是听取每个人给我的所有忠告。”
A Story.. Click to enlarge
It's interesting how anything and almost everything in this world can be a double edged sword. too much of a good thing can end up being a bad thing (kids, don't eat too much vitamins, and don't study so hard that you neglect other aspects of life).
Even advice. the double edged sword. it almost ties in with trust. like, how much can you trust someone to listen fully to his advice? An archer (identity protected) once told me "I trust XXX, whatever he say or advice, I just follow and do. no questions".
i never forgot that line. it filled me with so much cynicism that i had to keep quiet, in fear that my tactlessness got the better of me.
to what degree of blindness will you follow advice? not knowing if it will lead you to the kingdom of heaven (apt since i watched it today as well haha), or the valleys of hell? hello! YOU have a brain, please process the advice first. why do you place so much faith in another human? who's imperfect, just like you. and me. and all of us.
humans err. we disappoint too.
but yet, never reject advice. it is so often said that the one who disliked being advised the most, often is the one who needs it the most. don't be stubborn and be all high and mighty. don't let your ego take charge of you. sometimes we just need another thinking head, even if it's from someone you deem lesser than you.
Take home lesson:
永远记取忠告，但未必需要时时奉行。
~~~~~
Everything seems so elusive, you start to wonder what's real and what's not. what's good and what's bad.
almost like reflections. on a calm flat lake.
where only a ripple separates reality from an optical illusion.
i took the below photo at Marina South Park too. go figure. which half of the photo is the real scenery and which is the reflection. rotate it if you must! it could be easy, perhaps, but yet it underlies how easily our eyes can trick us. AND despite my love for photoshop, there is nothing edited here, save for the words.
Apparently Nothing.. Click to enlarge
which brings me to the word "apparent". yes, i've been thinking hard. haha (yeah, so typical). that word. what does it actually mean?
on one hand, it means "obvious" and yet, on the other, it could as easily mean "as opposed to real". one word, with almost two distinct different meanings. english has gone mad!
and life. presented with so many options, choices, advices and images. which is real? which is good? nothing seems apparent. or should i say, everything seems apparent.
i'm not really sure how to carry on from here, my head flooded with so many many threads of thoughts, so numerous that i'm unable to pen them down. there's just so many things to discuss of reflections. its blurness, its lacking of the definite solid shape that its original image possess, its mystical properties. how it can show you who you are, and yet how it can distort reality. how you can waste your life away fishing for that moon in the lake. how it could relate to life.
whatever seems apparent,
could end up being apparently nothing.
P.S. well, for the curious, the answer is.. the half with "apparently nothing" is the reflection on the lake, while the half with "apparent" is the actual objects. yeah, i'm sure you got that anyway.
Monday, May 16, 2005
i hate traffic jams
i hate the city traffic jams. or anywhere for the matter.
at the rate i'm driving, i deserve an accident to wake me up.
as if i was not frustrated enough, the jams had to make it worse.
if i could just sound the horn and no one will hear but me.
i will.
let it be my voice for a while.
at the rate i'm driving, i deserve an accident to wake me up.
as if i was not frustrated enough, the jams had to make it worse.
if i could just sound the horn and no one will hear but me.
i will.
let it be my voice for a while.
hear me scream.
~~~~~
and i was thinking.
life is almost like hailing down a taxi and getting on it.
“小弟，要去那里？”
“Uncle, 先走先。”
even if you do not have a destination. no purpose. no end point.
the cab still moves.
the meter still jumps.
but thank goodness for life
we do not already have to pay $2.40 just by getting on.
hmm.. do we?
make up your mind
the meter is still jumping.
Thursday, May 12, 2005
sisters' act
before i sleep tonight, i know i surely must put this picture here. haha, just as how Jolene was inspired in her blog to upload it, so am i! but darn, she got a step before me =)
and tada! my (currently) fav photo of my two amazing sisters! *beams*
my sisters! *beams* Jolene and Kathleen
I have been questioned on why I like this pic so much. it being one of those photos that i refused to delete off my digi cam. i dunno. but maybe it is the unpreparedness of it all in front of the camera, which makes the laughter so real and sweet. for the moment while it lasted, maybe this is what real joy is all about. the simplicity of it all! whenever i see this photo, i can just feel the essence of what a happy family is like. even when all seems downhill and families are breaking up everywhere, this photo (for me at least) makes me cling on to my idealistic views.
ah, thank you my dear sisters *smiles* i'm proud of you both! love you both!
Jolene on the left is having a time of her life in Sweden now (on SEP). Simply charming, pretty and hardworking (haha, everything her brother is not), i believe that she is going to have a blessed life ahead. =) it seems impossible to be upset with her!
Kathleen on the right is intelligent and very street-smart (again, something I'm not). she picks up skills (esp comp related stuff) at the speed of light. hmm, maybe it's just cos i'm too old a dog. haha. she has a funny way of showing her concern, and i somehow feel it's just her "trying to act cool" personality, typical of people these days. but it's sometimes the subtle stuff that touches me most. and not the glaring "I'M CONCERN" flashes.
come on, sue me. i know it's illegal to have two great sisters. =)
~~~~~
I met Shilin the other night. had a good chat. thanks gal! for sharing your mind =)
with all its unpredictability, life is a tough challenge. for all the rationality one can have, a moment of irrationality could result in the moment of folly. the fear can be intimidating and the memory painful. but all will heal with time, cliche as it sounds, but true as it stays. don't worry gal! you'll be fine, remember there's friends around you like us all from Arts Camp! we care lots! and remember:
Live Strong
~~~~~
and tada! my (currently) fav photo of my two amazing sisters! *beams*
my sisters! *beams* Jolene and Kathleen
I have been questioned on why I like this pic so much. it being one of those photos that i refused to delete off my digi cam. i dunno. but maybe it is the unpreparedness of it all in front of the camera, which makes the laughter so real and sweet. for the moment while it lasted, maybe this is what real joy is all about. the simplicity of it all! whenever i see this photo, i can just feel the essence of what a happy family is like. even when all seems downhill and families are breaking up everywhere, this photo (for me at least) makes me cling on to my idealistic views.
ah, thank you my dear sisters *smiles* i'm proud of you both! love you both!
Jolene on the left is having a time of her life in Sweden now (on SEP). Simply charming, pretty and hardworking (haha, everything her brother is not), i believe that she is going to have a blessed life ahead. =) it seems impossible to be upset with her!
Kathleen on the right is intelligent and very street-smart (again, something I'm not). she picks up skills (esp comp related stuff) at the speed of light. hmm, maybe it's just cos i'm too old a dog. haha. she has a funny way of showing her concern, and i somehow feel it's just her "trying to act cool" personality, typical of people these days. but it's sometimes the subtle stuff that touches me most. and not the glaring "I'M CONCERN" flashes.
come on, sue me. i know it's illegal to have two great sisters. =)
~~~~~
I met Shilin the other night. had a good chat. thanks gal! for sharing your mind =)
with all its unpredictability, life is a tough challenge. for all the rationality one can have, a moment of irrationality could result in the moment of folly. the fear can be intimidating and the memory painful. but all will heal with time, cliche as it sounds, but true as it stays. don't worry gal! you'll be fine, remember there's friends around you like us all from Arts Camp! we care lots! and remember:
Live Strong
~~~~~
if one day, I fail to be a good friend, a good leader, a good worker or a good person.
if I fail to make it big and be remembered for something great.
all i hope for,
really,
is to be a good son, a good brother and a good husband.
Powerpuff Chelsea
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
an archer once more
as the fairylike daze after exams come to an end, it's back to the sun (though we had gloomy skies on tuesday) and the arrows.
did i mention that wretched bow? which is still conquering me?
somehow exams seemed to have ended looong ago, though it's barely a week. and i wondered where the time has flown to. but bleah, i'm done with being a student this sem, so it's now time to be a full-time archer again!
resolution n0.1 = to get back in shape.
yeah, i know i used to say "round is a shape", so technically i'm in shape. but it has recently come to my attention (from the sinful indulgence of snacks during exams) that round is a fairly uncomfortable shape. whatever the case, it's time to do something about it.
have been going to gym on monday and today with some running (not a lot, due to the additional toil and weight my feet has to suffer above it). 2, 4, 6 is officially archery days.
resolution no.2 = to be a good archer
this is tough.
so often than not, i struggle with the decision. or decisions. whether to continue shooting. from a simple joy, it has complicated itself with politics and national team and undesired competition. the company i enjoy, but beyond that, i have little to speak of my deteriorating shooting.
with nothing to my name, it seems hard to justify anything. it's not about being materialistic. it's not about the argument that "as long as we are enjoying it, it's ok right?". it's about achieving that self-satisfaction. but it has perhaps come to a point where i could no longer muster it. when it has brought more disappointment than joy, mayhaps it's time to reconsider. perhaps it's just that my desire for excellence is too strong, it has often (not this once) resulted in me fearing otherwise.
argh, whatever. an archer will continue to train.
did i mention that wretched bow? which is still conquering me?
somehow exams seemed to have ended looong ago, though it's barely a week. and i wondered where the time has flown to. but bleah, i'm done with being a student this sem, so it's now time to be a full-time archer again!
resolution n0.1 = to get back in shape.
yeah, i know i used to say "round is a shape", so technically i'm in shape. but it has recently come to my attention (from the sinful indulgence of snacks during exams) that round is a fairly uncomfortable shape. whatever the case, it's time to do something about it.
have been going to gym on monday and today with some running (not a lot, due to the additional toil and weight my feet has to suffer above it). 2, 4, 6 is officially archery days.
resolution no.2 = to be a good archer
this is tough.
so often than not, i struggle with the decision. or decisions. whether to continue shooting. from a simple joy, it has complicated itself with politics and national team and undesired competition. the company i enjoy, but beyond that, i have little to speak of my deteriorating shooting.
with nothing to my name, it seems hard to justify anything. it's not about being materialistic. it's not about the argument that "as long as we are enjoying it, it's ok right?". it's about achieving that self-satisfaction. but it has perhaps come to a point where i could no longer muster it. when it has brought more disappointment than joy, mayhaps it's time to reconsider. perhaps it's just that my desire for excellence is too strong, it has often (not this once) resulted in me fearing otherwise.
argh, whatever. an archer will continue to train.
Monday, May 09, 2005
our inside job
indeed, we create prisons walls around ourselves, preventing achievement of happiness. straying away from the light of freedom, hiding in the dark corners.
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life, yeah
as if my last entry was not accurate enough, a friend of mine decided to stop writing her blog. tired of vetting and making sure everything written is correct. avoiding controversies, being over self-conscious, making sure feelings are not hurt. building that prison wall around your inner self.
oh when will we be free?
when will we stop walking away from reality into the glommy tunnels of disturbed minds?
when will we stop hurling ourselves into dungeons of futility?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
i hope she writes again soon.
~~~~~
most people seems troubled these days, despite the long hols. i have yet to meet up with a friend who seems troubled. so much she seems to be caging insider her inner prison cell, and i hope she can open up. hoping that she can find the reason that is robbing her of peace of mind.
as Desiree so often puts it across to me these days, we were meant to live for so much more, there is so much to life yet! living life to the fullest sounds ever so cliche now that hundreds of beauty queens wannabe used it (like "world peace" in Miss Universe eh?), so maybe, we should live like we were dying.
I went sky diving
I went rocky mountain climbing
I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fumanchu
And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I’d been denying
And he said one day I hope you get a chance
To live like you were dying
Like tomorrow was a gift
And you’ve got eternity to think of what
you did with it
stop doing the inside job to ourselves. stop making a mountain out of a mole hill. live life without (self-creating) additional pressure; we have enough already. do not incapacitate yourself further.
Song lyrics from:
Switchfoot - Meant to Live
Tim McGraw - Live like You were Dying
Sunday, May 08, 2005
Blog Headers/ Songs/ Layout
I've always believe. that good pictures plus appropriate music touches someone better than all words can express.
These two bring words to life! And due to my limited arsenal of vocabulary and the lacking charge of emotions in my words, I have decided to use a simple picture (with a little photoshop editing by me) as my blog header and a song in the background that will suit the picture, and hopefully, the mood of the times.
Well, and also cos I'm not really a big fan of pre-made blogskins, seemingly hard to find something that is truly me. Plus i'm not good enough to make a blogskin, well, at least not yet =)
So for the interested, here are my blog header pics so far. With the song, and where you can download them.
These two bring words to life! And due to my limited arsenal of vocabulary and the lacking charge of emotions in my words, I have decided to use a simple picture (with a little photoshop editing by me) as my blog header and a song in the background that will suit the picture, and hopefully, the mood of the times.
Well, and also cos I'm not really a big fan of pre-made blogskins, seemingly hard to find something that is truly me. Plus i'm not good enough to make a blogskin, well, at least not yet =)
So for the interested, here are my blog header pics so far. With the song, and where you can download them.
Song: Live like you were dying
Artist: Tim McGraw
Download: here (right click save as)
Lyrics: here
Song: Collide
Artist: Howie Day
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Song: I Can't Play The Songs
Artist: David Gates
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Song: 一千年以后
Artist: 林俊杰
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Song: Incomplete
Artist: Backstreet Boys
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Song: Untitled
Artist: Simple Plan
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Song: You're Beautiful
Artist: James Blunt
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Song: Wake me up when September ends
Artist: Green Day
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Song: 男人海洋
Artist: 周传雄
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Song: Life Is Wonderful
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Saturday, May 07, 2005
power at your fingertips
As with all new blogs, i shudder at the thought of the power lying at my fingertips. and in my words as my fingers float along the keyboard.
a blog can as easily make new friends as it unmakes old ones; words can be written in one way and interpreted in another.
and unlike some others, i do not believe that in my blog, I am the center of the universe. simply because i am not. what you think matter. yup, i'm still a conservative, cautious Asian; and not to say that it is bad or good. it makes things doubly hard when i'm not such a good narrator. I somehow can't bring myself to write safe things like "oh, today is a rainy day and i had so much fun playing soccer with my Sec 2 pals. thank you guys!" (though that is exactly what I did today)
bleah. ok, sometimes i do write events. but not really often. maybe these statements don't intrigue me enough. oh yes, i must mention that i'm still very much impressed by the word "intrigue". few things intrigue me, but when they do, they keep me on my toes seeking for more. so take it as an AWESOME compliment if i ever used that word before you (or better, on you).
depression makes the best mood for writing. of thoughts, emotions and mainly controversial stuff. ah... that i like =) as insufficient as words can be in expressing that inner you, it is often when you are depressed that you write the most beautiful prose, upon getting rid of that vizard and letting that inner self write.
a blog can as easily make new friends as it unmakes old ones; words can be written in one way and interpreted in another.
and unlike some others, i do not believe that in my blog, I am the center of the universe. simply because i am not. what you think matter. yup, i'm still a conservative, cautious Asian; and not to say that it is bad or good. it makes things doubly hard when i'm not such a good narrator. I somehow can't bring myself to write safe things like "oh, today is a rainy day and i had so much fun playing soccer with my Sec 2 pals. thank you guys!" (though that is exactly what I did today)
bleah. ok, sometimes i do write events. but not really often. maybe these statements don't intrigue me enough. oh yes, i must mention that i'm still very much impressed by the word "intrigue". few things intrigue me, but when they do, they keep me on my toes seeking for more. so take it as an AWESOME compliment if i ever used that word before you (or better, on you).
depression makes the best mood for writing. of thoughts, emotions and mainly controversial stuff. ah... that i like =) as insufficient as words can be in expressing that inner you, it is often when you are depressed that you write the most beautiful prose, upon getting rid of that vizard and letting that inner self write.
hush.
hear the silver pin drop
so... dear readers, expect less "things that happened to me" and more "thoughts that have occured" from me. and don't get offended too easily! we're all entitled to our own opinions. =) you see the pressure sometimes? to be writing things that you know someone is going to read. the expectations and those intertwining thoughts that run through your mind, and not forgetting their minds.
as the nib of my silver pen touches the paper
a blotch it left
the letters unwritten, undefined
but the meaning and thoughts clear to me
a blotch it remained
a blotch only i can read
you could have the world at your fingertips
you could
use it wisely.
Thursday, May 05, 2005
another blog is born
the end of something usually signifies the beginning of another.
nothing too morbid. but it's just the end of exams and the end of yet another semester!
and thus begins the new life of my public blog (public because i have another private one, read by a few souls whom i'm eternally thankful for) so another new blog is born! i mean, nothing too special. i mean, what is so special about the 12,665,799th blogspot blog?
so just allow me to have my take on life here. be it cynical, hilarious or juvenile, it's all written in my most humble opinion. leave your comments, hate mails or "i wish you well"s (don't worry, i don't think it's 老土 *grin*) and.... depending on my mood of the day, i'll get back to ya!
~~~~~
I write, to express myself, though sometimes words fail me and thoughts strangle me. My mind is my best journal, however it is not eternal and memories can be lost.
I am the only one who knows the full and complete extent of my own activities.
And i've decided to tell all (yeah right). I write in order to understand myself and I shall write as honestly as i can (which often is the hardest thing). This doesn't mean that i'm reliable. Ihe man who passes himself off as reliable in anything he writes about his own life has generally capsized before he's even set out on that hazardous voyage.
~~~~~
Whatever the case, thanks for reading.
and travelling along with me
as i embark on a journey to define myself
The question is:
do we want to do that?
nothing too morbid. but it's just the end of exams and the end of yet another semester!
and thus begins the new life of my public blog (public because i have another private one, read by a few souls whom i'm eternally thankful for) so another new blog is born! i mean, nothing too special. i mean, what is so special about the 12,665,799th blogspot blog?
so just allow me to have my take on life here. be it cynical, hilarious or juvenile, it's all written in my most humble opinion. leave your comments, hate mails or "i wish you well"s (don't worry, i don't think it's 老土 *grin*) and.... depending on my mood of the day, i'll get back to ya!
~~~~~
I write, to express myself, though sometimes words fail me and thoughts strangle me. My mind is my best journal, however it is not eternal and memories can be lost.
I am the only one who knows the full and complete extent of my own activities.
And i've decided to tell all (yeah right). I write in order to understand myself and I shall write as honestly as i can (which often is the hardest thing). This doesn't mean that i'm reliable. Ihe man who passes himself off as reliable in anything he writes about his own life has generally capsized before he's even set out on that hazardous voyage.
~~~~~
Whatever the case, thanks for reading.
and travelling along with me
as i embark on a journey to define myself
The question is:
do we want to do that?
maybe a life with blurred boundaries is more interesting.
the beauty of the mysterious and unknown
HaloScan