Thursday, March 30, 2006

 

"to be a better man" chant

For the whole of today, a phrase raged in my head,
a phrase that has been my personal principle for treating people for as long as I can remember.

“人可负我,
我不可负人。”

Resounding it was, almost a chant.
As I withstood the temptation to succumb to giving a black face and almost-sarcastic remarks. As I fought my tiredness to do my part to help.
As I struggled to as good-tempered as before.

I will not let my 座右铭 down. =) and will press on to be a better person!



Wednesday, March 22, 2006

 

失望

天地之大,难道就真的无容我身之处吗?

学成归来。无教如何学?
落地根生。无地如何落?
飘洋过海。寻找新梦想。



Saturday, March 18, 2006

 

wordplay-ed

The wizard of wordplay, Jason Mraz, was brilliant yesterday at the esplanade.

The way he moves, the way he coos, the way he makes every song his own, changing lyrics, tunes, beats and rhythm. His jokes, his stage presence. His songs. His words. His touching lyrics.

I'm totally charmed, entertained and in awe. Sheer delight to see him live. I'm sure everyone in my weird-looking combination of a group (Gene, Charissa, Francis, Amy, Pat, Wan Ling) agrees.

This medley, despite doing him no justice, represents all the claps I've given.

"You and I both loved
what you and I spoke of,
Others only dream of the love that I love

It takes no time to fall in love,
but it takes you years to know what love is

And what will happen to the origins of sound
after all the sounds have sounded

Dance with me,
because if you’ve got the poison,
I’ve got the remedy.

I wont worry my life away.

Life comes full circle.

I’m gonna be happy with the way that I am
I’m gonna be happy with all that I stand for
I’m gonna be happy now because the boy’s going home."



Wednesday, March 15, 2006

 

sexuality (3)

Of all coincidences, a funny mail came into my inbox today.

Just after the last entry entitled "sexuality (2)", so this entry is thus boringly named.

check it out.

http://computing-dictionary.thefreedictionary.com/Condoms
try clicking on the "sex" definition link


computing geeks *eyes roll*

~~~~~

FINALLY bumped into June Kiat today. Not seen him ever since I came back!

Of all places, Linger Cafe. Where else, would you find a devoted rock-climber and a heck-of-a-friend? The short catching up don't seem long enough. Another time then, my friend. =)



Sports ball 2004
Yup, I know. Now the Brokeback joke's on me.



Tuesday, March 14, 2006

 

sexuality (2)

I did this rather interesting questionaire today at the canteen, its title being "Sexuality (2)", conducted by the the Psychology department.

Somehow I thought it was quite unfair, as they defined "sexual acts" to include "hugging, kissing, petting" etc, and not just sexual intercourse. There were statements like "I feel like a sexual person" and "I have a good sexual life" and "I can make my partner perform sexual acts if I want to" and I have to rate it 1-5, 1 being strongly disagree and 5 being strongly agree.

Is the world getting more liberal with the meaning of the words or is it just me?

But of course, the whole point of this entry is that it reminds me (plus after a lunch conversation with Ben, Charissa and Zhan Tao) of a photo I took during the Archery Outdoor Competition few weeks back.


scratch my back
The true meaning of Brokeback Mountain
You scratch my back and I scratch yours.



Monday, March 13, 2006

 

dear diary?

I'm ashamed to call myself a blogger =p For my infrequent updates mainly, and at times for my uninteresting entries.

I've been hesitant, actually, to write down the days' events, weighing between using this blog as a diary or an outlet for thoughts expression. With a horrid short term memory, I've done neither to satisfaction.

Although school and life have fallen into some sort of a routine, there still seems much to talk about, from me being excited with my EDB internship interview coming up soon, to being a geek in the recent Suntec IT Fair, to Open House 2006. Term papers due soon, tutorials rushing. It's indeed been busy, sometimes so much that I seem to have missed out on time pondering on my own, limited, sometimes, to time in the gym and pool.

Is March half gone already? It's so fast it scares me sometimes. All the stuff I've planned to do in February, remains unaccomplished. A picture I did up in Feb, the song holds so much for me, but yet I've not sang it of late.

Hong Dou



Monday, March 06, 2006

 

and i thought i would never say this

I should be studying. Have a Level 4000 Econs midterm test first thing tomorrow at 9am.

But nothing is going in anymore, even when I barely started. My brain is almost throbbing against my skull, and my neck felt a soreness from carrying that heavy heated head above it.

I never ever thought I would say this.

But for moments today, I felt like giving up.

For all the hyped-up confidence, extra effort, more time and blind renewed enthusiasm, I started this sem with new-found energy, and even when results seemed to come back always below-par, I tackled it with the mentality that I can bounce back with better scores from assignments/ tutorials next time.

I was positive, that I'm not any more stupid than the next guy in class.

And now I'm no longer that sure. Everyone seems so smart. For all that extra time devoted to studying, I still don't get what is going on in modules at times, especially my two Level 4000 modules. For all the pride I put in to doing assignments all by myself, I did it to the best of my abilities, my B+ seems awkwardly insignificant to the guy who copies his assignments and gets away with an A all the time. As all these little percentages add up to the final score, I come to realise that my standards for myself are too stringent for this unfair world.

I grew weary, as efforts do not reap results. But of course I know it happens. With a bad test and 2 bad assignments coming back at me today, fueled with memories of past assignments, I felt dejected. In our educational system that gives no room for mistakes, I suspect that I'll fall short this sem.

Tiredness grew, confidence plunged and disappointment with the education increased. Maybe I wasn't meant to be such a good academic that I sometimes imagined myself to be, and should start to give up the pretense.

All said, I hope it's just a case of me out-pacing myself.



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