I had dinner with Jason today. and through the too-good-to-be-true porridges and xiao long baos of Crystal Jade, we chatted.

it felt, almost like a sequel to the night when Julian, June Kiat, Jason and me stayed over at Julian's. it was unplanned, but we chatted for so long, we figured it makes more sense to just stay over.

and perhaps. life is really about relationships. not just bgr, but friendships, family relations and so on. life is about relationships, because when we talk about life, we talk about our relationships with people. when we live this life, we live it for people, for ourselves maybe. people don't bond when they talk about cars or results or bows. people bond when they talk about themselves and their lives, their relationships.

people grow apart. yes. definitely. evolve into someone new, we may.

a "why not" person, is really, someone independent and always seeking new things and excitement. why not do this? why not go there? exciting, but tiring. how long, can it last?

a "make do" person, seeks stability. accomodating but unfortunately boring and even predictable. gives in often, and sometimes even not too decisive, fearing that decisions will not be a good one.

and i'm afraid, that i might have evolved into a "make do" person as time goes by. the "why not" phase has passed me by, though even now i can't remember much of it. i fear making decisions, because i fear the consequences, even if it was something as simple as displeasure from others.